2.06.2010

JR & Jodies Blog about Wes and Alejandro

For those of my family who aren't on facebook here is a link to JR & Jodie's blog so you can keep up with their little ones.

2.03.2010

friend request

So, as most of you are aware I LOVE FACE BOOK.
I do. Its true, and probably not a surprise to any of you reading this as we are all friends on Facebook.
Anyways, I've just gotten a friend request from someone who was (besides Jodie) my best friend in high school. So I should accept right? Well, hear me out.
So, close to 3 years ago, I got a friend request on myspace from the same person, and it was super awesome! we emailed, we made plans for our families to get together, his new wife and my husband and daughter whom he hadn't seen in close to 7 years.
So, we make plans, they fall through. We email, I'm like hey lets do it at such and such time. Great he says, they fall through. This happens repeatedly. They can't come over they can't come play. They can't come see bob's band, ect.
I'm thinking "what the hell?"
So, the truth comes out. His wife doesn't like the idea of us being friends. I say just let her meet us all of us not me but Bob and Sydney who love you as much as I do, and then she'll see there's nothing to be concerned about.
Whatever. He uses her nationality as an excuse, that all the women from "_____" are super jealous and what not.
Again, I say if she'd just meet me it'd be fine.
Well no, its not going to happen.
So gradually the emails stop. Lord knows theres no phone calls.
I'd send an email every few weeks trying to see if the address was still good.
Nothing.
So now... NOW... I get a Facebook friend request that says : "is it too late to add you"............
are you f'n kidding me????
Part of me is like let it go and be friends. They'll do what they want with it, but the other part knows if I accept the request I'll be like a puppy, and it'll start all over and I don't want to do that again. I know it sounds stupid but I'm attached to my friends and when I think a "long lost" friend is back I get all excited and I think maybe thats what drove them off last time.
I know my self well enough that I know I more than likely wont be able to control my excitement.
So, for now my answer was "I will have to think about it"
to which he replied "fair enough......."

Things

1. I don't watch Lost

2. I don't watch Heros

3. I do watch most SyFi produced series, I can't tell you why.

4. I dislike valentines day

5. My husband give the best valentines gifts ever <3

6. I'm growing my hair out, don't tell anyone because I might not do it if you do. SHHH

1.28.2010

Hello.. is this thing on?

Its been a while since I've blogged. There have been lots of reasons for that and probably none of them great.
I originally started this little blog as a craft blog of sorts and a way to keep in touch with my family and friends which is a decent reason. Though recently I've felt other reasons pulling at me but I've been a bit shy about posting because I hate being judged, which is also the main reason I don't like going to the gym, but I'm overcoming that and so I should start to overcome my fear of being judged for my writing and thoughts. So here goes:

This morning I woke around 4 am as usual and got ready to go to the gym (see, I'm overcoming fears left and right). I opened my emails and saw I had one from a friend of mine (who is the sister of another friend who is married to my best friend , you follow) about taking my friends out for . Anyway, my best friend and her husband just had two precious babies very early. They were born at 25 weeks gestation and are living in NICU. Needless to say the parents (my friends) are living at the NICU as much as the nurses will let them. What I have seen from the two of them in the last two weeks is amazing. I'm not amazed at the strength that they've shown in a way that I didn't think they had that kind of strength. I've always known my best friend did, though shes never been through a period as trying as this and to see her husband be her rock and love is about the most moving thing I've seen since the birth of Sydney.

Watching their love grow and their strength sustain them through all these days and nights of worry and joy has really made me look at them differently. It has also made me look at myself differently. I've realized how blessed I am and I never really appreciated it. I have appreciated it, don't get me wrong, I love my husband and daughter more than words can say. I never realized how easy we had it, even though it didn't seem easy at the time.

So watching my friends has taught me a few things.
1. I can be calm an collected even when my brain is screaming that I cant
2. I can show love to people all the time and I don't have to be cynical and keep up a wall
3. I can give whatever is needed whenever its needed.
4. I can take time for myself with out being or feeling selfish.
5. I can act not grumpy even when I am.

I know some of those correlations are hard to draw just from watching new parents watch their babies, but that's just what I've seen and learned. I'm trying to hold tight to these lessons so I don't forget them. I need to practice them every moment of the day.

Thank you guys
I love you.

12.17.2009

Its been a while

But I went to Maine and here are the pictures
Maine Christmas 2009

9.25.2009

New Style

This is it.. Blonde!

9.04.2009

They've made it!



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Yay!!